Justin and I have always been a little spontaneous when it comes to doing the “big things” in our relationship. Plus he isn’t much of a planner so I wasn’t really surprised to find out he didn’t really have a plan for this moment…
In early October Justin and I celebrated 6 and a half years together and I would say for about a year now I have been asking him the question “Is today the day?” at least once a week. His reply was usually a smile and a “nope, not today.”
and then on Monday October 25th, Justin and I attended a hockey game. Something we have done many times before and usually with his peers from work. We enjoyed the game, the company and I, myself enjoyed a few or 4 mixed drinks.
I love a good Malibu + Pineapple :)
The game ended and we walked through the parking garage, talking and giggling. This continued on the car ride home accompanied by music and out of tune singing. In between songs I mentioned how “I kinda thought today would be the day.” to which Justin replied “Do you want it to be?” and with zero hesitation I replied through my tipsy laughter “Duh!” But I had said this many times before so it didn’t have much meaning and I put no thought beyond his reply. Once we made it home my small bladder and I rushed to the bathroom while Justin ran upstairs, I assumed to also use the bathroom. Again, normal everyday things for us. But once I stepped into the kitchen I was greeted by an overly excited Winston (our golden retriever) and Justin with his hands behind his back. He looked at me with a smirk on his face and muttered the words:
“Well, do you want it to be today?”
I FROZE and through my nervous laughter I stuttered and said “Wait no I was joking, I wasn’t ready!” then, just instant tears.
I pretty much blacked out from that moment on, not from the alcohol but the fact that this moment was actually happening. I cried and cried while we just embraced in a hug for a really long time.
Justin told me that this wasn’t at all what he had planned but that it felt right, it was just us and that little moment with no one else around and quite honestly it was perfect. It felt like we had our own little world for a bit and we really were able to embrace it together.
Growing up when you start to think about the possibility that you will get engaged someday you kind of dream up these ideas of how it will happen. I have dreamed up so many possible scenarios over the years of how I wanted it to unfold but the root of every scenario was always that I wanted to be completely surprised. I started to realize that I didn’t really care how it happened as long as I didn’t see it coming and although after almost 7 years together I knew this day was going to happen I still felt so surprised. It is surreal and almost hard to explain the emotions you feel in that moment.
Needless to say, I said YES.
